Why am I so tired part 3b: The Pull of Mother Earth

March 9th, 2015






 “I love my pizza so much, in fact, that I have come to believe in my delirium that my pizza might actually love me, in return. I am having a relationship with this pizza, almost an affair.”


― Elizabeth Gilbert





© Universal Pictures

© Universal Pictures


So far in this series on energy and our (greater or lesser) access to it in the body we have seen that, when the flow of energy is hindered, our subjective experience is that we have low energy (for a recap click on the links for parts 1, 2 and 3 ). It can be more serious than that though. In the energy model that informs therapies like acupuncture and shiatsu among others, a reduced flow of energy is considered the very definition of disease.


We have said many times in these blogs that this chi-energy also manifests as conscious awareness. Therefore one might reasonably expect a corresponding lack of access to our awareness of the problem surrounding our energy issues: The emotional, mental and spiritual ‘Why’ in “Why am I so tired?”



Our oral nature


When we are born we cannot do much besides breathe, eliminate waste and suck. Through our mother’s stomach meridian (passing through the nipple) our stomach receives nourishing milk. This alone is enough nutrition to double our infant birth weight in five months.


Of course there is more to nourishment than nutrition. The act of breast feeding is soothing, nurturing and bonding for both mother and child. It is no coincidence that the substitute nipple babies are given is called a ‘pacifier’.



From our first oral experience we associate eating and drinking with the release of anxiety








Food relationships


Feeding is one way a mother expresses love to her child. It is not uncommon in later life that food and love become inseparable. As adults we learn to feed ourselves. What and how we eat then reflects self-love. We can use food in many ways depending on the relationship we have with ourselves:



We can choose food that provides the best nourishment

We can choose food based on its sensual qualities like smell, taste and colour

We can eat based on impulse and blood sugar levels at the time

We can eat absent-mindedly while engaged in other activities like watching TV or reading

We can eat to soothe stress and anxiety

We can choose foods we know are harmful to us that we will loathe ourselves for eating



We can deny ourselves food and feel a strange pride in doing so

We can gorge ourselves in overeating binges that are then relieved through purging

We can be fixated with food thinking about it hundreds of times per day

We can be scared of food, seeing it as a threat to our self-control



guilty eating



Food can be all these things and more.



Are we really what we eat? – Identification and food


Our physical, earth-body adjusts its form to our intake to the products of the earth – that’s food to you and me. If we identify with our body as ‘self’ it is only a short step to identify food as ‘self’. Here are a few case studies that illustrate the relationship between our original source of food-love – our mother – and our later connections to the self-love (or lack of it) of feeding.



Case 1: ‘The shrinking baby’


A woman in her forties with a history of anorexia, bulimia, flirtations with alcoholism, debilitating chronic fatigue syndrome and a childhood spent with a critical mother and absent father had a recurring dream/nightmare:


Though childless in real life she saw herself holding a beautiful baby in her arms. The baby began shrinking despite her best efforts to take care of it. Eventually the baby shrunk to the size of a pea in her hand and disappeared.


A psychologist, without any background knowledge of her life, was told about her dream.  His interpretation saw this as being about herself more than any anxiety about losing a child. Her inner child-self was the baby that she could not confirm or nourish. His first question was “Does this woman suffer from anorexia?”







Case 2 “The second best child”


A middle aged male with severe anorexia. His mother had an earlier female child adopted out to her older sister. After her second child, a boy, was born he grew up believing his sister was in fact his cousin.


What he did notice however was that whenever he would get close emotionally to his mother the moment would be broken as she withdrew. He did not know that she suffered from tremendous guilt for adopting away her first child where she felt that showing too much affection to her son would be a betrayal to her absent daughter.


Her son grew up thinking he was unworthy of his mother’s love. He compensated for a time with a sensual enjoyment of rich and plentiful food. However it only took a small joke about his weight as a young man to send him spiralling into anorexia and self-loathing for the next 30 years.




Case 3 ‘From the nipple to the bottle, never satisfied’[2]


A middle aged man with a history of severe alcoholism. Both his father and uncle died of alcohol- related disease. Shortly after his birth he was separated for a time from his mother as she was suffering from depression.


In adult life he finally quit drinking due to heavy bouts of anxiety and panic attacks. He was also a smoker. While he was drinking and smoking he only had a sporadic interest in food. Having now quit both, his ‘new’ oral fixation was the abuse of food and ‘energy’ drinks.




Now that he was sober the substitute desire for oral comfort came crashing back. The reason he gave for this was that he lacked ‘energy’ and hoped the food and energy drinks would help.



Food can take energy too


We mentioned last week that the digestion of food is highly energy intensive. Not only that but it can create a lot of collateral damage:



  • The oxidation from the digestive process releases unpaired electron free radicals that age our body
  • The creation of waste and toxic by-products that burden our organs of elimination and tax our energy
  • In cases like those listed last week, the creation of inflammatory states in our digestive and circulatory systems


The quickest way to feel lighter and more energetic is to not eat at all but instead release waste (by evacuating the bowels), breathe deeply out in the fresh air and sunshine and focus on reasons to feel gratitude and happiness in our life



‘V = P – O’                                                               


Though probably considered a ‘quack’ by the medical community then and even today, ‘Professor’ Arnold Ehret achieved quite a remarkable thing at the turn of last century. He tried to describe how energy worked in health and disease without the aid of an energy model.


His awkwardly titled 1922 book – ‘A Scientific Method Of Eating Your Way To Health: Prof. Arnold Ehret’s Mucusless-Diet Healing System. A Complete Course, For Those Who Desire To Learn How To Control Their Health – first saw his theory of why energy becomes blocked and why people get sick and have shortened lifespans. It was summed up in his ‘equation’:


V = P – O


‘V’ was the manifest vitality of a human being as health and energy

‘P‘ was the innate potential of an individual. These day we might say our genetically inherited strengths and vulnerabilities.

O’ was the level of obstruction preventing us realising our potential as unfettered vitality.


The criminal in his story of disease was mucus. Any foods that caused the body to respond with greater mucus production must be eliminated from the diet. As mucus itself was a glyco-protein acid it also contributed to a rise in acidity in the body.


Most importantly, mucus suspends toxic matter for elimination in its gluey trap and slows down its release from the body. Ehret felt this radically increased our chances of becoming ill and proposed alkaline creating foods like fruit and vegetables along with periods of fasting and rest as these residues were eliminated from the body.




Fasting and the anorectic ‘high’


In a previous blog about why all diets work and don’t work (click here) we mentioned that they are all, in one way or another, partial fasts. That is they are more about what we do not eat more than the diet they offer.


Fasting itself can cause a feeling of lightness and a sense of lifting off the earth and worldly concerns. After all we have released our grazing tether to it by ceasing to connect ourselves to the earth through eating. It may come as no surprise then that fasting is used in many spiritual and religious practices.


This ‘high’ however can become addictive. The rational goes: “If I feel this high, maybe I should fast even more!” The reintroduction of ‘dampening’ food to our unstoked digestive fires often feels like an unwelcome crash back down to earth. The result is a sensation of sluggish ‘heaviness’ and swelling as we enter the gravitational orbit of earthly processes once more.


To the anorectic, who is both high on a reduced or absent food intake, food and digestion is a dual problem. They also feel ‘strung out on heavens high, hitting an all-time low’ when they do eat.[1] Their poor digestive fires means they feel the heaviness of food even more. In addition, the accompanying damp swelling is interpreted as instantly ‘getting fat’ and so they run away from food in fear and self-loathing for the weak betrayal of their once heavenly state.






Leaving the earth for while


It seems our earthly attachments cause all types of suffering then – not the least of which is the heavy tax on our energy. Next week will look at many more creative ways us humans invent to sabotage our most valuable resource. But let us save our energy till then.



Till another Monday brings us back to earth with a bang,




[1] Ashes to Ashes. David Bowie. RCA records. 1980

[2] ‘Nipple to the bottle’. Grace Jones, Sly Dunbar. Island records. 1982



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